Painful to read at first, but I put promise it gets better and easier.
Is a train is in the background and coyotes have come down from the woods, chittering constantly. I am Trying to learn more about this voice texting thing because I think that maybe I’ll be able to learn to express myself better if I speak rather than type. Generally my my fingers and hands are high express myself best I do it at the end of a ball point pen with the dulling pencil scraping against paper but for some reason my verbal language my audio language is a complete mess I don’t say what I’m thinking I can’t create I can’t focus my Words as well as I can when it’s coming from the tip of a pencil or at times from buttons being pushed in a keyboard is all very different this the speaking my thought out loud especially since it only goes on for so many seconds and then pauses and jotted down on the screen or whatever have you my mouth is not as in tune with my brain is my hands are and if I could just throw that you know even if I do throw thoughts onto a paper they still don’t come out the same because I don’t actually know what I’m thinking until it is down on paper. Press it is time for me to just close my eyes and just talk Seaward takes me top by myself talk without a pencil talk without paper just talk seaward gets me I thought I considered doing the video blogging but I don’t like looking at myself I don’t like seeing myself talking what’s more as I was looking down when the camera is staring at my third eye and I just looks silly because I’m looking down because I’m watching the little tiny image of myself talking instead of watching the camera I just talked the whole Longpre to hit the fucking button stupid non-button no I didn’t hit the button it just stops and I didn’t notice it stopped selling me stupid technology.
So I’ve been watching Battlestar Galactica and everything is in my head is silence silence the silence but I love to see this voice thing voice recognition thing spell the word Psion but we’ll see yeah I spelled words Ceile on which is actually spelled see why LOL is spelled it PS iOS. I’m into minds as to whether or not to go back and edit this so that people can see my journey and trying to learn how to use this talking texting thing. I have to learn to actually say the word PE are IOD when I wide-eyed at the end of my sentence. It’s silly looking back over weather try to say that I spelled you can see you make a whole lot of nonsense so you know maybe I won’t edit this just if you can see that it’s probably helpful actually that I don’t cover the microphone with my hands when I speak I’m sitting here talking to the little dots in my iPad as if the camera lenses going to record my voice that’s just silly I know better.
The problem with me talking my things out loud is that my mind changes direction faster than my mouth and if I’m writing with a writing utensil with the keyboard whatever that helps me to focus my mind on one thing. It’s not incorrect to say that writing is a meditative tool because it is it allows one to focus and stay focused on the topic.
If I’m stoned and I’m trying to write or I’m trying to even talk or anything of the swords but it is going to be a jumble of giggles and jumble of giggles. Delete delete delete delete shit please don’t delete
I apologize for the century this entry is nothing but gibberish. Is experiments to see how our technology is trying to understands us. Our brother maybe I’m trying to understand technology. Either way it’s trying to bridge the human computer gap. And I am just trying to see if I can get away without tapping my little iPad redundantly. I think that this will be useful when I am fucked up in the future I’m trying to write an entry. Because most the time when I am trying to write an entry on the computer when I am tripping balls or am rolling phase I get really distracted by the click of the button or with a simple feeling the texture against my fingers. So for me to just be able to get an iPad hit new entry I’m just jabber away and see what happens then maybe I will make the more blog terrific.
I might have lied. My apologies.